We are one love

angelz_eyes @ 2007-05-18T13:01:00

2007-05-18T20:02:20Z

I really need to quit fucking myself over.

I have to be at work at 3:30 and I will be there till 4...a little over 12 hours of busting my ass.

Hopefully it's worth it tonight. If not bring me a tall tree and some rope please. K? thanks.

On a happier note, Thomas is doing wonderful. He's running around the house screaming right now wearing one of daddy's hats. It's cute.

And daddy is crashed out on the couch. Amazing that I'm the one up though, taking care of the kid on 5 hours of sleep having to work a 12 hour shift tonight. Just amazing.

So

2007-05-12T12:24:40Z

how about I slam my head into a wall
REALLY HARD.

the end.

angelz_eyes @ 2007-05-04T16:22:00

2007-05-04T23:41:51Z

So I have a headache
Thomas bit my leg yesterday and broke the skin.

The biting thing needs to stop.

I have work tonight and 7:30 and I'm really not looking foward to it.
It would be nice to have a week off, but unfortunately sitting on my ass doesn't pay the bills.

I need to look for a part time, and only work this job on the weekends and the part time during the week so I can finish school.

It's really depressing when you don't know where the hell your life is going.

Tomorrow I'm helping my mom pack shit up. She's finally getting out of the hell hole, thank god. Jason, Thomas and I are probably going to move in with her for a while until we can actually get our place. So from one normal household to another. I really should be content right now.

I mean, I have the internet. Thomas has more than 20 something feet of trailer to run around in. I shouldn't complain.

That's just part of trying to make it in life.

Sooo....

2007-05-03T22:47:17Z

Haven't updated this thing in almost a year.
I think the last time I wrote was the day my dad turned off the internet.

Anyway, I've been stressed out to the max.
Got evicted
working too much
thomas driving me crazy. etc etc.

He started walking about 2 months ago and is now almost running. He's growing so fast. School was basically a lost cause...for now.

I couldn't work 10 hour night and have energy to take care of a screaming toddler, and go to school then start all over at 5:30 pm to 4 am....

Hopefully I'll be able to go back soon though.

Anyway, peace. Hope everyone who is still writing on this thing has a nice day.

Aubs

angelz_eyes @ 2006-05-26T09:23:00

2006-05-26T16:25:18Z

Michelle hunny, I love you.
I'm always here for you.
Your mom is so so proud of the gorgeous, strong, amazing person you've become.

This week has been pretty dull, besides yesterday
I had TWO friends over. I'm not a hermit, yay.
Ediwn came over around 1 and stayed for like 3 hours and we just chilled and talked about the past and he amused Thomas. I missed that kid. Then he left and I came back inside, watched some TV, fed fatty...then I talked to Andrea on AIM. She came over at like 6:45 or so and we sat around for an hour waiting for Jason to get home. He was hanging out with Scott and didnt bother to come tell me that. I still love him though. So Andrea and I went to get food and came back and watched Hercules. Well we didn't really watch, we were busy talking the entire time. I had fun love. Can't wait for another girls night =)

Tuesday Aubrey goes back to school to finish that diploma. I'm not ready to wake up early....and walk for like half an hour.....=( It's got to be done though.

Tomorrow is Ashley's b-day party at 2. So Jason and I will have fun there. Sunday I think we're going to the beach with Kristen for a few hours for a picnic thingy. This weekend should be kicked back. I'm tired so I think I'll fall back asleep for an hour...or so.

<3 Aubs

Yay

2006-05-22T19:09:46Z

Happy Birthday to Me
Happy Birthday to Me
Happy Birthday dear myself
Happy Birthday to Me

3 more hours until I'm officially 19.
Movies tonight with Jenee and Billy
Dinner with Mommy, Jason and little T
I'm hopefully getting a tattoo this week.

Yippy! =D
Today should be a good day.

P.S. My journal needs a look update, no?

*EDIT*
So I went to foothills today and I start school next Tuesday. Yay for me. First subject that I have to complete is US History, my least favorite. Maybe I'll grow to love it. I'm going to go every day from 8:30 to 12 (I don't have to though, but I need to so I'll complete the course quickly) You only have to go once a week for 4 hours, but that won't cut it for me. Thomas will be in childcare there, but I'm going to check it out first, and if I'm not happy with them he's going with Nicole. Then I'll be applying for jobs EVERYWHERE. So hopefully I'll be working and going to school within the next two weeks. I'm almost there.

Woot

2006-05-21T21:41:58Z

Yesterday was fun.
My party rocked and so did everyone who came. You guys are awesome and thankyou for coming and for the cards and gifts. For those of you who missed it because of choir or work, I love you too and wish you could have been there!

Today Jason and I were supposed to go to his aunts for a little get together because his cousin Jenna is in town. Unfortunately now for some reason it's not working out. So we're both a little bummed. We're supposed to help my mom out later, but I still haven't heard from her.

Tomorrow is my actual birthday and we're going to see a movie with Jenee and Billy. Hopefully us girls get our way and get to see Over the Hedge. It is my birthday after all :P Anywho, then after that my mom is going to take us out to dinner (most likely Applebee's or Denny's. I'm not sure which yet. A few people are supposed to stop by who couldn't make it yesterday and I have to give them a call. So tomorrow should be nice. In the morning I have to go over to Foothills to meet with a counselor there....and I haven't decided whether I'm walking...or to call Julie.

I'm very content right now and today has been a good day.

<3 Aubs

So

2006-05-19T15:38:49Z

Well my birthday is on Monday and my party is this Saturday =D
It's going to be fun. Anyway, things are looking up since my last post. I met with Ms. Hoadley and got my transcripts. Then I have a meeting with a counselor from foothills adult school on my birthday at 9 in the freaking morning..oh well. I was summoned for jury duty on the 7th =( I'm unhappy about that but there is nothing I can do. It will be a good experience though. DMV on the 13th....

After I meet with the counselor it's time to apply for jobs yet again. Now that I'll be enrolled in school I'll have a greater chance of being hired. Hopefully I will be so that I can actually feel like I accomplished something.

I'm trying to actually start hanging out with friends again. Seriously people if you want to just chill or see a movie, let me know alright? I get so bored every day. There's really nothing to do except go outside with Thomas, watch TV, draw, sit on the computer. These activities get boring. Give me a call or message or something and let me know if you want to come by k?

Oh I almost forgot! Jason's cousin Nicole told us that once they fix there ford we can have it. We'll be making payments and everything but we'll finally have a car! It's so frustrating having to arrange rides all the time. It will be nice to just get in my own car and get from point A to point B without much hassle. We shouldn't get our hopes though, because if it's something that can't be fixed then we have to save up to purchase our own used car. It's no big deal if that happens though, we have responsibilities and have to fulfill them. Nicole also informed me that she'll babysit anytime as long as she has 24 hours notice, so once I'm working I've got a full time babysitter, which is a relief because he'll be with somone I know. The downside..is that if I am not illegible for the independent study program at foothills is that he'll be placed in the childcare available there from 7:40 to 12 something while I'm in class. Those people better no what they're doing. I'm so nervous to put him in the care of someone I don't know.

I can't let it stress me out though because I'm trying to relax. I need to sign up for yoga or something. A gym membership would be a nice investment as well, although they're a tad expensive. It's possible though.

I'll be a happy woman if Jason gets home from work earlier today. Then tomorrow, I have to wake up early and get the rec room ready for my party...I'm going to be so tired by the end of tomorrow, I've been up since 5:30 I should get some sleep while the little tyke is out. Enjoy your weekend everyone. If you're coming to my party, see you there =)

<3

angelz_eyes @ 2006-05-05T12:20:00

2006-05-05T19:55:58Z

Well I guess I'm feeling a little better. I still have this sickening frustration building up. It's rather annoying really. There's nothing that I can do about it right now though. I need to get my fucking act together and call hoadley for my transcripts so that I can register with foothills. Otherwise my life will not go anywhere. I don't know what my problem is. I keep talking to my mom about everything I want to do and all the things I know I'm capable of, but for some idiotic reason I won't pull myself together and DO IT. I also want to work part time somewhere, but I won't be able to until I register because when I was originally looking for a job I didn't get accepted anywhere. Why you ask? No highschool diploma. I keep kicking myself for slacking off all those years. Yeah, occassionally I did exceptional work and I would get mostly A's and B's on assignments...but occassionally is not enough. If I had just got off my lazy ass I could have accomplished something. I'm failing Jason, I'm failing Thomas, I've failed my mother....but worst of all, I've failed myself.

I don't know what's up with me.

2006-05-04T08:45:31Z

Well...
I feel strange. I'm not happy right now and I don't know what's wrong. I need time to think or something. Maybe go for a walk with Thomas tomorrow and let my mind be completely free of any thoughts. I don't know. Possibly I need to take a dance class or something to let some energy out. Once I start working I think I'll do that. Hope everyone has a good rest of the week....anyone want to do something this weekend? Let me know.

SQUEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-23T02:46:44Z

WE'RE GOING TO DISNEYLAND TOMORROW!!! Micah can take the car, yay.

bummer

2006-04-17T22:16:07Z

Well Jason, Micah and I were supposed to go to Disneyland on Sunday...but that didn't work out. He's allowed to use the car next weekend, so that's when we're going. ANOTHER week to wait. It's driving me crazy. Anyway, Thomas is 6 months old now and as cute as ever. He's so chubby. Litty fatty. He has a doctor's appointment next week on Monday...I bet he weighs 18 lbs. or so. We have a new little kitty, but can't decide on a name. She's a GORGEOUS tortie pt siamese, and is absolutely adorable. Bubbles is her uncle...it's cute. My birthday is pretty much a month away and so is Jason's....my 18th birthday didn't seem like it was that long ago. I find that crazy....Then two more years and we'll be 21, that will happen before we know it. Seriously folks who are still in highschool. Once you hit your senior year life seems to fly by. I mean....all my little freshman are going to be seniors in August. You guys grew up too fast! *sobs* Well....other than all I just bored you with there's really nothing else going on. I'll be starting at foothills pretty soon to finish my diploma. Finally. Then I'll be able to get a job once that's over. Hope everyone has a great week back to school....haha. Love all of you.

life

2006-03-16T11:02:12Z

Life has been pretty sweet :)
Not much has been going on, just living and being a little family. I've been an insomniac lately for about 2 weeks. I end up going to bed when Jason leaves for work. Crazy. Anyway, yesterday marked the da of Thomas turning 5 months old. He's almost half a year....ALREADY! I find that really hard to believe that time has gone by so quickly. He's so adorable...been laughing for about 2 or 3 weeks now, or something like that. SO CUTE. I have a WIC appointment today at 11:30. Joy...Then I get to stop by an adult school to get a schedule straightened out so I can get the damn diploma already. Well...I really don't feel like reading through 2 weeks of everyones journal, but I just might. Hope you all have a great day.

Uhm. O.o...hi

2006-02-11T11:18:12Z

I don't really give a damn about this thing anymore. Cause I am wayy to lazy to update it. And there is no way I'm going back on almost 4 weeks worth catching up. But in a nutshell. Well...I'm happy for the most part. Jason is a sexy beast. Thomas is almost 4 months old and most handsome! My mom is awesome and has been helping out a bunch and coming over. I really miss seeing her every day. Micah is living here and might I add it's a BLAST, lol. My bestest Briners has been going through SHIT and I miss her terribly. :( uhhh....still smoking. Had some interesting episodes of paranoia because of something. hehheh. Meeshell knows :):P hmmm, what else. I will most likely be working with my momma in law at her company in the next month or so. yay. I failed my behind the wheel....which sucked....retaking on the 22nd. Hopefully I'll do better and won't be a retard this time with that turn....Anywho. So next time I write I'll probably have my license. But no car. That's strange. Anyway. Uhm so I hope you all enjoyed this little read. Oh yeah, and I'm a neopets addict again. ooops, and I ate hotcheetos *smacks self* MY BAD! yeahhh. have a good weekend!

2006 so far

2006-01-06T07:51:27Z

uh, HAPPY NEW YEAR? lol. Yeah so new years wasn't that exciting. Micah has been over pretty much constantly which has been fun. We didn't even get drunk new years eve which sucked monkey nuts. BUT wed. Jason and I were F U C K E D fucked up. Micah took care of Thomas. But anyway. It was hilarious what i can remember of it anyways. Micah and Jason told me that I said that I wanted to have a threesome with michelle and jason. lmao. yeah i was DRUNK ok?!?!?!?! so shut up. weeeeeee. so yeah pretty much the highlight since i updated was that. lmao. But I guess we had a pretty good start to the new year. I gotted a new rat, I dont know if I said that and Flash was a bitch and she attacked Tonks my new cute adorable one. So since I didnt really like her already and she wouldnt let me hold her I took her outside put her down and walked back into the trailer. lol. this one is really sweet. Thomas is doing great. He's sleeping right now and has been for a while and I'm sick and kind of tired and very horny. lol. not that you all needed to know. Well I love you guys. I Love You Jason.

♥ /-\ubrey |_auren Seavello

weeee!

2005-12-29T08:37:31Z

So christmas wasn't too great but I had a good time with my mom. We went to see Cheaper by the Dozen 2 which was really cute. and funny. Jason was supposed to go but he decided to wait for micah because we couldn't get ahold of him since my cell died. We actually were going to go with thomas and then jason me and my mom...but the movie wasn't on for like and hour and a half so we took jason home....then bumped into micah at the mall. Which was pretty coincidence. Anyway. then monday my mom came over and cooked the dinner and that was nummy. I told her I smoke. which was interesting. She got mad at jason for it and didn't talk to me that night but now she's over it. She's just worried about me. I love my momma. Anyway.

TODAY WAS FUN! Michelle came over. Kristen had said that she would be picking her up and called at like 15 till 10 and i was like....uhm i told michelle 11 o clock. So she never showed and I was pissed. Then Jason called big jason and he came over to pick me up and then go get him so that was really nice of him. We stopped at estrada's after we picked him up and then came here. We had lots of fun. took sexy pics, went to the jacuzzi. hung out. smoked some pot.........lol. Scott who we hung out with last summer still lives here so that's cool. uhm. Then we found a ride home for michelle from Terry. After that we went to get my rat rat. I was going to get a male and breed him with flash. but i was like why don't i just get a little baby female rat. so I get her and she's ADORABLE. We named her Tonks. Anyway. Then we got panda express for Jason and got smirnoff and more steel reserves and then came home. I introduced flash and tonks...and she attacked her so I was like. welllllll Flash is a bitch and won't let me hold her and this little rat is a cutie and loves me and lets me hold her. So I set flash free. little bitch. she ATTACKED her. i was pissed. but anyway. so terry hung out for little while and we played some pool and stuff and drank and had a few cigarettes. I took Tonks outside with us and she was chillin on the table. so cute. Anyway. I HAD FUN TODAY! love you meeeshellll! i love all of you and hope that your break is going swell. I Love You Jason

♥/-\ubrey |_auren Seavello

yay!

2005-12-20T06:28:18Z

Jason is home. We picked him up at like....2 something. He's good he's just still in pain. obviously cause he did have surgery. Thomas was up alllll day being alittle cutie. i swear he hasn't slept that much at all really. He's so tired but he doesn't want to go to sleep. I'm tired. lol. Uhm, tomorrow i get my endoscopy to see if my ulcers are healed. If they are that is total greatness. yay! uhm. My mom has been awesome these past couple of days. Well she's just awesome in general. enough said. I love you guys and I hope everyone has had an awesome first weekend of break. I Love You Jason.

♥ /-\ubrey |_auren Seavello

update on my bu

2005-12-18T05:54:39Z

Jason is staying overnight at the hospital again tonight. He had his appendix (sp?) removed and it had ruptured. that's why they want to keep him overnight for further observation. He's been in a lot of pain from the surgery, but he'll be alright. And they're putting him on three antibiotics and giving him vicadine (sp?) i need to learn how to spell. Anyway, i'm still kinda anxious cause i wanted to stay with him, but I can't because they don't like to have overnight visitors. I did stay last night though because I wanted to and i had to ride because my mom left. The post op nurse was really nice and made me as comfortable as possible next to his bed in a recliner that they have for patients. So I got some sleep but slept lightly and got up everytime I heard jason stir which was pretty much every hour or so until ike 2 and then we both slept till 5 I got up again and kinda slept off and on. I just want everything to be ok so that he can come home. He will be home tomorrow i'm just not sure what time. Hopefully sometime before 12 if possible. I'm exhausted and i'm going to take two tylenol extra strengths and try to sleep, he's not answering his phone though so that may not be the easiest thing for me to do. I love you guys. I Love You Jason. my everything. i love you sooooooo much.

pray for jason

2005-12-16T23:28:28Z

so this morning I wake up to Jason telling me his abdomen hurts really bad and that he was dry heaving and coughed up blood. not the happiest thing to wake up to. So then he threw up later and his dad came to get him at like 12 so that they could pick up their bonuses at work...........then i called at about 1 or something or maybe later i dunno cause i'm extremely out of it right now. He picks up and says that he's in the urgent care, and he's getting worse. so I tell him i love him and to call me when he finds out what's wrong and i hope that he starts feeling better. then i call my dad to find out how to empty the fucking gray water tank because it backed up into the bathtub where we happen to keep the dirty clothes.........so now they're soaked and molding. GREAT. but i got that done anyway. then liza called me and said that she could babysit for thomas just let her know when she needs to come by. jason calls like 2 minutes after that telling me that the nurse thinks it's apendicitus (sp?) and that he has to go to the ER in the main hospital. so hopefully that's all it is and he gets that little fucker removed and will be ok because if anything happens i will lose it. i've been crying most of the day. micah is over here now and is probably going to come with me when we get a ride from whoever we're getting a ride from. keep him on your mind and pray that everything is ok, that it's not something more serious than that. i'm scared. i love you guys, pray for him. I Love You Jason. please be ok.

bored.............got it from michelle's bulletin thingy

2005-12-14T06:55:07Z

Ways I've kissed

[x] on the cheek
[x] on the lips
[x] on their hands or fingers
[x] in my room
[x] in their room
[x] of the opposite sex
[x] in a different state
[x] a little younger than me
[x] a little older than me
[x] with black hair
[x] with curly hair
[x] blonde hair and blue eyes
[x] with red hair(jason has read in his natural hair :D)
[x] with straight hair
[x] shorter than me
[x] who i truly love/loved
[x] in the morning
[x] right after waking up
[x] just before bed
[x] late at night
[x] who I had just met
[x] who I really didn't want to kiss
[x] while i was going out with some else
[x] on a bed
[ ] in a graveyard
[x] at school
[x] against a wall
[x] on the dancefloor
[x] at a show
[x] at the beach
[x] in a pool
[x] who was/is a good friend
[x] in the rain
[x] in a car/taxi/bus
[x] at a party
[x] on a plane
[x] in the movies
[x] in a bathroom
[x] in the dark
[ ] on a roof top
[x] under water
[x] with a tongue ring
[x] while driving
[x] who was dating a friend
[ ] a stranger
[x] goodbye forever
[ ] who didn't speak english
[x] on a playground
[x] on a bench
[x] in a hot tub
[x] in the ocean
[x] on the floor
[x] in the shower
[ ] on a trampoline
[x] in the tubes at mcdonalds/burger king
[ ] on a cruise
[ ] in the snow
[x] under the stars
[x] in an elevator
[x] while chewing gum
[x] on a chair
[ ] under a waterfall
[x] in the woods
[x] on the ear
[x] on the neck
[x] at a red light
[x] on a staircase
[x] while your sleeping.
[x] with a food item
[x] on a couch
[x] on the grass
[x] at the zoo
[x] in someone, that's not involved in the kissing's, room
[x] in a parents room
[x] on a bunk bed
[x] in an airport
[x] on a boat
[ ] on a roommates bed
[x] in a park
[x] under a tree
[ ] in a dorm
[x] in the driveway
[x] on a porch
[x] in a well known make out spot
[ ] in the basement
[x] in a garage
[x] in a mall
[x] at church
[x] at a wedding
[x] at a funeral
[x] in a hospital
[x] at a play
[x] in the kitchen
[x] on a counter
[x] in a restaurant

only 11 are blank...i should fill those.

anyway. i'm bored right now. Thomas is asleep next to me. didn't do much today. jason stayed home from work cause he was throwing up. we're waiting for micah to get here cause he's spending the night. jason's playing halo. i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. i'm sorta tired and really wanting a starbucks right about now. anyway. i'm pissed cause i stopped by the school to say hi and drop off michelle coles jacket. and they saw me walking on and stopped me and so i had to drop off her jacket in the freaking attendance office....blah. that sucked. so then i called nick and asked him if he could have michelle come up and say hi so she did and that was awesome cause i missssss her sooooo muches. like she does me and jason. anyway. we need to hang out over break. well i need to hang out with everyone actually. i miss soo many people. well i love you all. I Love You Jason

♥ /-\ubrey |_auren Seavello

stole is from mattie

2005-12-11T06:43:54Z

BOLD ALL THAY APPLY:

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at a theme park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time without sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn't do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Watched the "Harry Potter" movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade/iced tea stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn't have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM's/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed. didn't die though
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Pet a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did "spirit day" at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A's.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren't home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
Done surveys like this to pass the time.
I cannot do splits.
I hate challenge.
My dreams disturb me.
I often wear dresses.
I've been called "fake" before.
My ears have never been pierced.
Good posture is a turn-on.
Jesus is my homeboy.
I hate all the ideas of the hippie population.
Freddie Mercury is a god.
I have a perverted mind.
My muscles are bigger than your head.
I eat too much.
I enjoy being checked out. (by Jason only :D )
My skin-tone is synonymous to xerox paper.
I hate bottled water.
I've sent something to PostSecret.com.
I want to send something to PostSecret.com.
I am so sorry.
There are words and/or phrases that make me cringe when I hear them.
I love to watch gameshows.
I'm just like everyone else...
Caffeine is terrible.
I need to shave.
In person, I'm very private.
On livejournal, I'm very open.
In person, I'm very open. (depends on who i'm talking to)
On livejournal, I'm very obscure.
I cannot sleep in.
I hate being told how to do things that I know perfectly well how to do.
I enjoy foreplay more than sex itself.
I can run a five-minute mile.
1,000 sit ups is an easy task.
I don't do dairy.
Pink Floyd.
My eyesight is better than my hearing.
"Hate" is a word I use a lot.
I'm a stereotypical teenager.
I think about death a lot.
I can't wait until I have (more) kids.
I am rarely bored.
I collect(ed) Beanie Babies.
I have slept on a waterbed.
I am/was in Water Polo.
I hate to read.
I lie more than I breathe.
I have a new crush every week.
I sing very well.
A shower sounds really good right now.
I've talked to Smarterchild on AIM.
My friends make my drawings.
I am respected at school/work/wherever.
The song "Holla Back Girl" by Gwen Stafani helps me spell bananas.
Most of my friends are depressed.
I own a car I do not drive.
Cartoons, that's all I watch.
I love it when my friends are happy.
I read the Da Vinci Code.
I'm Jewish.
Pasta is my favorite.
My cat's name is Fluffy.
I am intimidating. (to some people)
I know all most of the songs in A Nightmare Before Christmas by heart.
The glass is half-empty. (ok....i'm said before i will solve this. it's half full if you're filling it up and it's half empty if you're drinking it :D)
I say "That's gay" a lot.
I am a very light sleeper.
I hug all my friends.
I feel dumb whenever I make typos.
I can't dance.
Rap is the only true horrible music.
Lightning frightens me.
I wish I were cooler.
I hate buying things for my girlfriend/boyfriend.
Foreign movies irritate me.
I always use semicolons.
I wear a lot of makeup.
I'm homosexual.
I'm bisexual.
Drugs help me cope with things.
I have cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend.
I hate shirts with writing on them.
My cellphone ringtone is some popular song.
I like Green Day.
I wear a lot of jewelry.
My friends tell me everything.
Math isn't my favorite subject, but I'm good at it.
I have been physically taken advantage of.
I'm obsessed with livejournal.
I celebrate my pets' birthdays.
I've been hit on by lesbians.
There is something I am addicted to.
I hate watching the movie if I haven't read/finished the book.
I don't have a myspace.
My parents are restrictive.
Sex-scenes are my favorite.
I hate the smell of gasoline.
I've watched Barney.
My favorite store in the mall is the bookstore.
By trying to be "nonconformist," I look like everyone else.
I'm putting off something.
Techno is a pleasure.
I like Ska.
People say I'm funny.
A friend of mine is named Clare.
I hate all of my ex boyfriends/girlfriends.
I ride a motorcycle.
I'm a stickler for grammar.
I dye my hair.
People judge me.
Gigantic sweatshirts = love.
This survey is kinda neat.
I never wear my hair down.
I judge other people based on the music they listen to.
I'm nosy.
Fire is so beautiful.
I'd be better off alone.
I am bisexual or homosexual.
I've consumed alcohol.
I've run away from home.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I don't like Bush because he is dumb. but..
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
I am for Bush. (only because he is against abortion...i think there is something else though....)
I listen to political music.
I collected comic books.
I am shorter than 5'5.
I think I'm ugly.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I open up to others easily.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I watch the news.
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3 player.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I love Disney Movies.
I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
I don't kill bugs.
I curse regularly.
I paid for that cell phone ring.
I am a sports fanatic.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
I love Spam.
I bake well.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I own something from Abercrombie.
I have a job.
I love Martha Stewart.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I am self conscious.
I like to laugh.
I smoke a pack a day.
I Liked Perks of Being a Wallflower.
I Liked Go Ask Alice.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
I eat fast food weekly.
I have many scars.
I believe in ghosts.
I can't sleep if I know there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I have to see a therapist.
I have taken anti-depressants.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I am comfortable with being me.
I play video games.
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm married.
Gotten lost in your city.
Saw a shooting star.
Wished on a shooting star.
Saw a meteor shower.
I had a serious surgery.
Gone out in public in your pajamas.
I have kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Laughed and had milk or another drink come out of your nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
Made out in an elevator.
Swore at your parents.
Kicked a guy where it hurts. (by accident)
Been close to love. (i am in love)
Been to a casino.
Been skydiving.
Broken a bone.
Played spin the bottle.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
Bitten someone.
Been to Niagara Falls.
Gotten the chicken pox.
Crashed into a friend's car.
Been to Japan.
Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back.
Stole something from your job.
Gone on a blind date.
Had a crush on a teacher.
Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
Slept with a co-worker.
Been married.
Gotten divorced. :D
Had children.
Been to Africa.
Driven over 400 miles in one day.
Been to Canada.
Been to Mexico.
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
Thrown up in a bar.
Eaten Sushi.
Been snowboarding.
Met someone in person from the internet.
Been to a moto cross show.
Lost a child.
Gone to college.
Graduated college.
Miss someone right now.
Taken painkillers when you didn't need them.
Woke up crying.
Peed from laughing.
Had sex in a car.
Had sex in public.
Had sex in the bathroom.
Had sex in a sibling's bed.
Had sex in a parent's bed. (god i feel like such a whore...lol)

anyyyywayyyy....i'm bored, my head hurts. i'm really ticked that i had to miss jenee's concert because we're poor. blah. uhm, i'm stopping by the school on monday or wed. not sure which yet. annnnnd....uh yeah. i want to go to disneyland. like NOW. i'm supposed to go. :( hope that works out. i miss my mommy. wow i'm jabbering...ok not much to say really now. uh thomas is sleeping and jason is playing halo and micah is outside smoking a cig........and i need sleep. love you all. I Love You Jason.

bloop

2005-12-07T22:02:17Z

so now i've done everything i said i was never going to do:

sex before marriage: great decision though :) well with jason that is
done a drug of some sort
and now i've started smoking

last night my mom came over to pick me up and take me to get my medicines and when we got back jason and micah were outside and micah was smoking and i knew jason was but i didn't see him do it. so i asked micah and in a kinda sarcastic voice and obvious he was like "noooooooo" and so i was pissed off. and before you say anything let me finish my story. so then my mom left after a while of feeding thomas and stuff and micah and jason had gone to the trailer. so when i got in there i was like....you're in trouble you know that? you said that you had quit and i know you've been smoking a little bit but exactly how much? and he pretty much said every chance that he gets to and so i basically flipped out and i'm like i guess i better prepare myself for losing you when we're in our 50's. and we argued a bit more and i'm like you know what? i may as well just join you, cause we said we wanted to die together right? so i marched down to the albertson's bought a bag of cheetos and a pack of marlboro's. came back and we smoked. and i calked down right away which was weird. so then we went to the jacuzzi in a little bit after i felt better and was no longer naucious or had a headache. the jacuzzi was NICE. then we came back and smoked another one and then watched some of school of rock and then asleep. now i'm just sitting here on the puter while jason is watching some movie called ghosts of mars. anyway. micah's coming over in a little while and bringing jason and me a beer....and i'm tired. well anyway i love you all. I Love You Jason. :)

♥ /-\ubrey |_auren Seavello

hey

2005-12-04T04:43:15Z

soooooo.....thanksgiving was nice my mom came over and made food with me before we went to john's for a big family dinner. then my mom's birthday was the next day and we went to the mall on that day to buy her this red sweater and a pair of earrings. she loves both and i'm really happy :) my mom diserves that world. i love her so much. and we each got her a card. thomas got one too and i put his footprint in it. then my mom and i went to see pride and prejudice which was a beautiful and awesome movie. really well done. and i want to see it again. i miss my mom.

uhm, not much has happened really. i need to get by the school to give michelle cole her sweater
or have someone give it to her. i don't know when the hell i can do that. no one is giving me a ride. and i don't want her to be mad at me or anything. i hate it when people are mad at me.

thomas is getting absolutely adorable. he's getting more chubbiness and it's so cute. he's almost two months old! but he has to get his shots on the 12th...:( i won't be able to watch. i'm going to feel soooo bad.

i miss my friends. how about you all come over and make me happy? k?

i wish real life wasn't so damn difficult. we need money and jason's job is not sufficient enough because sometimes there's just no work so he doesn't really have a set income. i'm stressed. but he does get a good normal paycheck next friday...so that's a relief. hopefully he'll be working with his mom soon. i want a damn job...but i need to wait a while because i want time with my baby.

i want to go somewhere...like on an actual vacation and just take time away, just to breathe. it would be nice. i think we're still going to disneyland in a few weeks....so that will help!lol

jason's at micah's because micah's cousin is down here and won't be at their house until midnight or something. he hasn't seen her in like....years and they used to hang out a lot. anyway. so i'm here by myself, thomas is at his aunties

Bubbles is asleep on my legs. He's soooo cute and i can hear Flash chewing on something in her cage. i love my pets. i'm exhausted even though i've slept a lot.....my body aches, i started my fucking period god damnit.....! as if bleeding for like four weeks wasn't enough....it sneaks back up on me like two weeks later. blah. but cramps are nothing to me now. anywho. i think i'm done boring you with my complaining. i hope everyone has a great weekend and everything. lots of love to you all. I Love You Jason.

♥ /-\ubrey |_auren Seavello

i can't do my cool s thing anymore cause jason's computer is dumb. and mine is fucked up right now....it sucks monkey butt.

just as bored as nene

2005-11-20T22:01:03Z

1.What is your full name?:: Aubrey Lauren Seavello
2.Nicknames?:: Aub, Aubs, Aubsie, Aubby, Bree, Aubsers...lol, uhm.........some that i'd rather not mention. lol
3.WHen is your birthday?:: May 22, 1987
4.What is your age?:: 18
5.Relationship status?:: Married
6.What school do you attend?:: None right now
7.Do you wish you had a different name?:: I used to ALL the time. I love my name though
8.Who is your best friend(s)?:: Sabrina
9.If you could change one thing about your self what would it be?:: my hair NEEDS to grow more
10.What is your favorite color(s)?:: bluuuuuuue
.::Love Life::.
11.Taken or single?:: Taken
12.Who is your crush?:: the one and only Jason
13.Do they know it?:: of course he does
14.Ever kissed someone and regreted it?:: felt bad, but i didn't regret it
15.What is your longest relationship?:: Almost 15 months now.
16.Whats the farthest you've gone?:: uhm....i'm pretty sure everyone can kinda figure that one out.
17.Have you ever cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend?:: yep and i'm soooo glad i did too
18.Do you believe in love at first sight?:: yes
19.Have you ever been cheated on?:: yep, by the same person who i cheated on
20.Do you want to get married?:: i am
.::Favorites::.
21.Favorite movie(s)?:: god uhm...anchorman, school of rock, underworld, emperor's new groove..sooo many more.
22.Type of drink?:: pepsi or a venti caramel frappicino with a double shot of espresso and extra caramel. :)
23.Ice cream?:: chocolate chip cookie dough
24.Favorite names?:: boys: thomas, zachary and michael girl: rylee, and kallisa. ring any bells? :)
25.Favorite song?:: uhhh...god uhm i dunno but I really love "Don't Want to Miss a Thing" it's a beautiful song.
26.Favorite band or group?:: i don't know
27.Type of music?:: it depends, but i love most music
28.Thing to do when it rains?:: depending on my mood either go outside and kiss and dance in it. or stay inside snuggled under a warm blanky watching a movie
29.Thing to eat?:: pizza, lasanga, mac and cheese, popcorn
30.Time of day?:: i'd say dusk because i love watching the sunset
.::First Thing You Think Of::.
31.Soap:: shower
32.Pink:: cute and bright
33.Loud:: music
34.Eyelashes:: mascara
35.Apples:: red
36.Green:: frog
37.Salt water:: gross
38.Bubbles:: POP!
39.Black:: night
40.Bank:: money
.::Chose One::.
41. Rap or rock?:: rock
42.Black or white?:: black
43.Blue or green?:: Blue
44.Love or Money?:: love
45.Chocolate or vanilla?:: chocolate
46.Group date or by yourselves?:: both
47.Blood or water:: both
48.Love or lust?:: love
49.Aim or myspace?:: both
50.Music or silent?:: music
.::Random::.
51.Do you like potatoes?:: yes, potatoes are nummers
52.How about corn?:: mmm, yumm
53.How long have you been on the internet for?:: an hour?
54.Would you ever kill someone for 1000 dollars?:: no
55.Whats your favorite word:: i have no idea
56.Whats your aim screen name?:: br0kenwingsfall
57.Do you like to wear socks?:: yes they keep my toesies all snuggly
58.What is your moms middle name?:: Sharon
59.Your dads?:: Francis
60.Do you have siblings?:: yeah, my brother chris
61.What size shoe do you wear?:: it depends, usually 7-8
62.Speaking of shoes, ever thow one at anyone?:: yep lol. at jason, and probably most of my bfs, sometimes playing sometimes cause i've freaking ticked off.
63.Have you ever tried to commit suicide?:: yep
64.Do you like scary movies?:: hell no
65.Whats your favorite color of carpet?:: this deep forest green that was in this house that my mom and i looked at. it's PRETTY
66.How tall are you?:: 5'4"
67.What color is your hair?:: dark brown/red naturally blonde
68.Whats your sexual orentation?:: bi i guess. of course no matter how hot a girl is no one tops my sexy hubby and how much i love him to death. :)
69.Whats the first 3 digits of your phone number?:: 933
70.Do you like school?:: yeah, just not homework
71.Do you ever wish you could be someone else?:: i've wished that i could have a different life before does that count?
72.Have you ever been in jail?:: no
73.Do you like sandwiches?:: yep, especially subway
74.Do you like eggs?:: EWWWWWW. the end
75.Are you thirsty?:: yes
76.Who was the last person you messaged/imed?:: michelle
77.Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?:: my mom
78.Do you believe in same sex marriage?:: yeah
79.Have you ever wished you were a different race?:: no
80.Do you shop at the thrift store?:: ocassionally
81.Do you get along with everyone?:: i try to
82.What are you listening to right now?:: nadda
83.Have you ever won an award?: yes
84.Do you like to sing?:: it would be my passion
85.Are you crying?:: no
86.What kind of car do you want?:: i dunno, we'll have to have something big eventually with all the little ones. i don't really care as long as it looks pretty nice and is as safe a possible
87.Do you like to do laundry?:: sometimes..lol
88.Do you want to have sex right now?:: O.o
89.What is your sexual fantasy? it's been fulfilled
.::Final Questions::.
90.Do you want to be a princess?:: I am a princess.
91.Do you like our president?:: no
92.Are you racist?:: No.
93.Are you sexist?:: no
94.Do you like the person that you copied this quiz from:: yep yep
95.Do you know how to cook?:: yeah, i'm pretty good, at least i think so
96.Are you scared of the dark?:: yea
97.Have you ever ran away?:: no
98.Are your parents divorced?:: yes
99.Have you ever got threatened by someone way older then you?:: yep
100.Did you enjoy this survey?:: not really, i'm just bored

angelz_eyes @ 2005-11-19T15:20:00

2005-11-19T23:25:13Z

Nothing really exciting has happened lately...so i wasn't motivated to update, but i thought I should. Uhm...yesterday we went to see Harry Potter...it was cute but I was disappointed because they left A LOT out that should have been in the movie and didn't really explain anything well so people who haven't read the books will be like "??" Anyway..it was good though...but just a disappointment :( It could have been SOOOOOOOOOO much better. Thomas is at his Aunties right now and she's dropping him off in like two hours and Sabrina and Andrea are coming over to hang out and should be here soon, hopefully. I need new clothes.....I think my son has more than i do. lol. Well....that's really about it. I want to go to the winter formal so let me know when it is and someone has to invite Jason and me :) k?? Have a good weekend everyone. love ya. I Love You Jason

♥ /-\ubrey |_auren Seavello